Hindi habang buhay e kaya kong tiisin yung sitwasyon natin ngayon. Hindi sapat yung mahal mo lang ako. Mas maganda kung sasamahan mo din ng kahit konting effort. Nag effort ka nga pero anyare? Ganito pa rin dba? Wag lang sanang dumating yung panahon na masabi kong ayaw ko na. Na pagod na ako. Hindi ko na kaya. Wag sanang dumating yung panahon na kung kelan okay na ang lahat e huli na pala…
This picture was taken last October 2, 2013. I was craving for burger, Zark’s burger to be exact. Haha. I was amazed when I heard the news about that famous Zark’s. After hearing that news, I was looking for somebody who will go with me on that food chain. After a long time, finally I tasted their burger with my best buddy. I’m so happy because I am satisfied with their burger. It taste good and their fries is delicious. I will definitely go back there when we have time. :)
My experience there was extra special because I went there with my love of my life. :)
I decided to be in this situation because this is where I’m happy. This is where I am loved. This is where I felt being loved by someone whom I also love. I enjoy being with him even if its wrong. Even if its hard and even if it hurts, I still choose to be with him because I am happy and no one can understand how much Im really happy.
People say that labels make things complicated but to me it’s the opposite. Labels make things clear and let people know where they stand and exactly what the situation is.
They make life easier, not more complicated.
-Then why are you letting go?
-Because I have to.
-What's the difference?
-Giving up is when you have something to fight for, but you choose not to.
-Does that not count as giving up?
-No. For there was nothing for me from the beginning.
Dadating yung araw na ikaw nalang yung madalas magtext. Dadating yung araw na yung mga pagkahaba habang reply niya sayo, ngayon hindi na umaabot ng 3 words. Malay mo isang araw hindi na siya sing sweet nung dati. Yung 10x na pag-a-“I love you” niya sayo sa isang araw ngayon isang beses na lang, minsan nga hindi na. Yung pagaalala niya na, “Kumain ka na ba?” o kaya naman, “Okay ka lang ba?” malay mo isang araw, hindi ka na niya tatanungin nun. Hindi na siya yung nakilala mo noon na sobrang caring at sobrang bait. Yung tao na nasasandalan mo, dahil madalas puro away nalang kayo. Dadating yung araw na hindi niyo na gagawin yung bonding niyo noon kasi tinatamad daw siya. Yun bang dumadating sa puntong ikaw nalang yung nag e-effort, ikaw nalang yung umaako ng lahat. Dumadating sa puntong ikaw nalang yung nagmamahal. Pilit kang kumakapit, habang siya bumibitiw na. Kaya habang nandyan siya, habang mahal ka niya, wag mong sayangin yung mga oras na yun.
Wag mo siyang dedmahin kapag nage’effort siya sayo, wag mong dedmahin kapag nagiging sweet siya.
I-appreciate mo lahat. Dahil hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon, nasa magandang lagay yung relasyon niyo. Hindi habambuhay puro sweet at saya lang. Mahalin mo siya dahil kung hindi mo papansinin baka isang araw mawala nalang siya at magsawa na." -
When I first saw you, you really don’t get my attention. You are just one of those typical men who I have seen. I never thought that I would have this kind of feeling of loving someone like you. WE were JUST FRIENDS before. I am just a good friend of yours, giving you some advice when you are having a problem with your family and with your girlfriend. Days, weeks, months have passed and we’re getting closer, more than friends, but less than lovers. You are getting sweeter than before, you care for me so much, you give more of time and effort that’s why unexpectedly, I started to fall in love with you. That was the biggest mistake that I have done, to fall in love with a guy that was already taken. I know it’s really hard, but I choose to be in this kind of situation. I try to escape to what I feel for him, but I failed because you can’t easily ignore what you really feel. This is very hard and very painful. :’(
Months have passed and we have this mutual feelings and we continue to be like this until now. It’s not easy to be in this kind of relationship. Yes I am happy, for now because the other woman didn’t know about our relationship with his man, but when that time comes, I’m pretty sure that my life will be miserable, our happiness will end. It will be very difficult and it will be very painful.
When will the time come that he will become mine? Really mine. When will the time that we will never hide what we have right now? I want to know the answer. Just say now. :’(